“I been on the low I been taking my time I feel like I’m out of my mind”

What is going on folks? I initially set out a goal to write a blog and get it published every two weeks. With the release typically coming in around Sunday afternoon and followed up by posting it again Monday/Tuesday evening. Guess what? Yeah, that didn’t happen and I am already behind. Thinking about it I don’t necessarily ever get to the point to where I feel forced to write, which ultimately led to my absence last year. Feeling forced to write is absolutely terrible conditions to write in. I don’t feel inspired to write at those moments nor do I have the clear thinking to get my message across to. My style of writing requires me to manufacture my thoughts into words in a way you guys can relate and hopefully feel.

Something new I want to start doing with the next blog is I am going to go into a little bit of detail about the song lyrics I chose and the artist. Nothing too much. Every blog title does have a connection to the blog it’s tied to. I wouldn’t necessarily say the connection is always made with the audience, but somehow it has connected with me and my current thoughts on the blog. The title “I been on the low I been taking my time I feel like I’m out of my mind” comes from the song 1-800-273-8255. This is the number to the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline and is sang by Logic. I knew who Logic was and was aware of some of his songs that I regularly visit. It wasn’t until the Grammy performance I seen last night that really opened my eyes to him as an individual. Call me late to the party, but damn I felt that performance and have been looking up his interviews and other songs all day today. I get this general sense of goodness with him that I appreciate and connected with instantly. So check out this link and I hope you enjoy it as much as I did. Logic – 1800-273-8255 ft. Alessia Cara, Khalid .

On to the meat and potatoes of this one. I just started this book called “The Subtle Art of Not Giving a Fuck”. It’s one of the best books I’ve read in a long time. It talks about in great detail of just focusing on your own shit. I plan on having a whole blog dedicated to it with excerpts from the book eventually here. In the meantime I’ll just aimlessly create blogs like I have been doing.

“Life moves pretty fast. If you don’t stop and look around once in awhile, you could miss it”

Famous quote from a fucking rad movie. Ferris Bueller’s Day Off. I was first introduced to this movie in French class in high school. I didn’t even give a shit about it then. I watched this movie probably a year ago by now and it actually grasped my attention and feels. This movies speaks to the reckless child still within us. It comes in glimpses anymore and passes with the blink of an eye. Ferris skips school and drives a Ferrari. Why, because he just really doesn’t care. He’s at the age where nothing really matters. The consequences of your actions aren’t typically too bad nor are you thinking of the severity. For Ferris that day of skipping school was all he was thinking about that day, wasn’t strategically planned, he just did it. This is what separates adolescents minds from our own. We as adults (most of us) care way too fucking much about what happens from day to day and it’s almost depressing. Maybe depressing is a little harsh in that sense, but the truth of the matter is that we’re missing out on things. That is subjective as all hell I get it. I also think a lot of people wake up at age 50 and wonder where the hell their lives went. I can let you know at that point in my life, but I digress. Complacency is a fucking dangerous thing and I just think our culture as a whole has a obsessive fixation with work. We don’t take time for ourselves. We don’t work on our own metal health. We don’t listen to the kid inside us screaming for attention. We keep pushing these feelings deeper and deeper. Everyone has their own fixes and coping mechanisms and I am pretty sure I don’t need to tell you it’s important to address these things on a regular basis. However, I think folks need to be reminded to address them from time to time. How do I address them? Well, “me time” is one of the few ways. Now let me say I don’t have children yet, but fail to believe it’s not possible after that. Writing for me as a whole helps tremendously. I like to read lyrics to songs. I game with friends online (all my bills are paid so suck it). I have about 1hr 30mins of driving everyday in which I listen to music or books. Music is numero uno in all of this. If it wasn’t for my love for music this blog wouldn’t be a thing.

” I wish I could explain myself, but the words escape me”

I’ve mentioned this in past blogs. I can write with better expression and clarity than I can speak. We are all victims of society. Work, work ,work…. Charles Bukowski said it best “Don’t Try”. More or less stop focusing so much on what you don’t have. People constantly try to get what they don’t have because society and fucking social media tell us we need it. I am victim of this, i’ll admit. It’s a fucking plague that has taken over our generation. As I mentioned in the last blog. I am focusing on myself these days. It’s hard to maintain constant focus when there is so much negativity being plastered everywhere. The positive media news stories don’t last long, but they happen I assure you. The media is built off of this concept that nobody is good enough. Whether that “good” entails health, wealth, do we look okay?, is our house big enough?, are the things we believe accepted by our peers?, yada, yada, yada and constantly trying to tell us what we need to do and work for. I am really trying to block out that noise this year. Last blog I had mentioned that I fell off writing because of it. The only way to tackle it is to address it. By doing so I’ve had a shit load of weight come off my shoulders. Weight that didn’t deserve to be there in the first place. We can’t let this world bring us to our knees, although it’s going to try. It’s going to try so fucking hard. If it manages to bum you out find somebody and talk to them about it. It can be a friend or somebody medically licensed. Don’t let the shit negativity bring you down because you honestly deserve better. Don’t be ashamed of reaching out for help. Mental health isn’t a new concept of our overall equilibrium, it’s just one that is ignored in our day to day lives. Mental health isn’t taken as serious as what it should. People think just because someone is smiling all is well. That’s not necessarily the case at all. It doesn’t mean they aren’t struggling beneath the surface. I am all ears if you’d ever want to reach out. My social networks can be reached on the right hand side of this post. Well folks it’s been real again, thanks for reading.

“Bad news comes don’t you worry even when it lands
Good news will work its way to all them plans”

Title of blog is lyrics from: Logic – 1-800-273-8255

Remember these are the words of me, the words of I, and the words of everything I previously have known.

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Float On,

Mess

 

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