It’s hard to remember we’re alive for the first time, it’s hard to remember we’re alive for the last time

“Nobody believes in friendship anymore. People talk about it, you see it on TV, people drop by, go to the store together, no one eats alone, but most people are alone. That’s the thing about friendship it’s a lot rarer than love, because there is nothing in it for anybody”

^^This quote above has hit me like none other for the past 2 days. Sure “friendship” is important to all, but not all believe in it. I am beginning to think that my true friends have lost the meaning in what friendship really is.  We have let the machine dictate who and what we want. We have let the machine alter our lives.  We have let obtain complete dominance of what we grew up protecting.  Most of us are exactly what our younger selves tried to protect us from. We are the folk we never wanted to become. Not all of us, but most are completely disappointed with what they’ve become. Of course we’re not able to get factual evidence on this, because god forbid those disappoint those who’d be upset.

I know several couples that deep down our completely miserable, but play it off as if everything is okay. It’s quite depressing, not because they’re relationship is a lie, but because they are denying themselves the opportunity to an infinite world.  It’s a bummer people buckle down just because they’re suppose to. Like what the fuck is that suppose to mean? “Well I’ve been dating so and so for this long so I thinks to time we stick together for the rest of our life”. I am not saying this doesn’t happen and maybe this is how you have found your soul mate in life. This is not the case always god damnit. This is not a predetermined requirement to get married. This is not a justification to remain miserable in life.

Go to work (In which you dont like) , Come home to a significant other (In which you dont believe in anything they do or believe in anything they stand for), and completely disregard anything you have previously known (you know the friendships you have spent the past 10 years and so for building). Gee I dont know first off if you dont like your job do something about it for fuck sake! If you have minimal common grounds with your significant other has it ever occurred to you that you may not have enough in common to continue your entire life with them?? God damnit! The friendship thing can’t be explained..only those that have had “true” friends that’d go completely out of their way in search of nothing in return would understand. So since friendship is rarer than love i’ll save my fingers and prefer to not comment on the matter.

The thing about friendship and I is that I truly believe in its nature. I believe in every aspect of it. Brotherhood, unity and solidarity. I am afraid most of the people I have previously known have lost what their younger selves wished upon them. I have friends in relationships that are noticeably unhappy, I have friends working shit jobs because they think it’s what they deserve, most importantly I have friends that have given up on their friendships with their true brothers. Ones who’d be their before their own family. I hope one day even if we’re miles apart we can reconcile what once was.  We do not have to let our current state dictate what we once were.

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Remember these are the words of me, the words of I, and the words of everything I previously have known.

-Mess

 

It’ll happen once again, you’ll turn to a friend someone that understands

“I am taking back what belongs to me” <– story of this past year for me. I wish I could paint the picture for you folks, but that’d take an absurd amount of time. Time in which you don’t have, neither do I.

For as long as I can remember I have wanted nothing more than complete happiness for the people I have cared for the most.  The stars have been aligned  and it’s time to turn my focus. Focus on ME, focus that you and I and most the people we know sell out on. This is a broad subject I understand this. I also hope you understand I am not calling one out for wanting to raise a family or dedicating their time to their wife.  I am questioning you on what you truly want to do in this life? If your not happy with what your doing whether it be a relationship, job, or where your at in life you do have the ability to change it. There is a possibility to have your cake and eat it to.

It takes a certain kind of person to see this life the way I see it. How do I know this?  I know this because there are very few people in my life that acknowledge the real issues of this world without blaming politics and categorizing them. An open mind is far superior to a closed one.  Change is happening and happening fast. You nor I am able to stop it. The people are starting to speak, the people WILL get what the people want in the end. If you are not on board unfortunately your going to sink.  I want to let everyone know there is room for all to stay afloat, there is room for all to prosper.

What am I taking back? I am taking back what I want. What do I want? I am not 100% sure, however staying around here I am not 100% sure. I’ve been around for awhile living around here, you’d think i’d be certain if I wanted to remain here, but I am not. I know there is sooo much more out there.  Hell even our state is HUGE when your looking down from above.  I have an ability to talk to strangers and make friends wherever I am so I am not scared.  The hardest thing is leaving the ones behind that you care about which brings me back to my initial point.  Everyone I know is happy and taken care of my duty here is done.  The weight from my shoulders has been lifted.

I hope all you reading this often ask yourself what you are doing and is this what I want? Why would anyone stop questioning what they want? We have the potential to do soooo much stuff why not embrace it all? I don’t see myself in this are by this time next year the ball has already started rolling for me. I have been researching quite a bit of different places.  I can always come back to the place I grew up with the familiar faces and places, however home is where the heart is.

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Remember these are the words of me, the words of I, and the words of everything I previously have known.

-Mess

Days like today make reconcile seem far away

Damn feels like forever since I’ve had the chance to sit down and just write.  In all honesty sitting down and writing is an escape for me just as drinking.  Uh oh now I am an alcoholic, we love titles and diagnosing people.

I have been wanting to write a for awhile now so I do apologize beforehand if this post is compilation of chaos.  It’s crazy once you finally start going your separate ways from you usual ways you start realizing that you literally the opportunity of a lifetime to do whatever it is you please. “What do I want to do?” <– The million dollar question.  There is no multiple choice, ask the audience or phone a friend on this one. You are the sole owner of this one. What if I mess up? What if I lose contact with the people I care for? What if I fail at my next endeavor? Questions that constantly darken the path. If I mess up i’ll become stronger, If I lose contact with the people I care about we never actually cared that much for each other and If I fail i’ll become wiser.  It’s vicious path we put ourselves through and the thing about it is we don’t have to.  I’ve come to realization that I am standing at a crossroads.  We always the opportunity to go back.  If I go off the beaten path it won’t be hard to find it once again.  I know I am stronger mentally than most give me credit for. The chaotic life I’ve made it through thus far has only strengthened me.  I feel as if I am able to see this life and world for what it is.  My horizon if very well broadened and I am open to most things.  So with this being said why am I so comfortable with complacency? Why am I okay with mediocrity?

We constantly search for more in life over foolish social networks.  We constantly interact with people we really don’t even care for.  Facebook is nothing more than a plague.  We see people doing awesome shit and wish we could be doing it. We see people doing the same things they did last year. We see people regressing in life and we see people bettering themselves. People starting families, people living single and people that okay with their current standings.  To each their own and I embrace it.  Do what you want to, I get it, but I do believe that we are all constantly searching for more. I know the grass isn’t always greener on the other side, but how are we suppose to know if we don’t find out for ourselves. What really pisses me off is the negativity that comes along with people wanting to embrace a different lifestyle. Perhaps its moving to a different state, trying to obtain a different goal or just trying to better themselves somehow. People are always going to judge each decision we make so do it anyhow. Kid Cudi said “People gon judge you anyway so whatever” a very truthful statement.

Another thing Facebook offers is a place for complete ignorance. I will be the first to admit that I do post a lot of topics ranging from controversial to educational.  I had a French teacher in high-school that always told us to “Do you own research, dont believe me.” Looking back that is some of the greatest advice I have ever been given.  It has become a major part of who I am.  There is plenty of bullshit information on the Internet, but it is our responsibility to find actual accredited information.  In a world where we have unlimited information at our fingertips we as a nation are ignorant as all hell. Change is bad has been burned into us.  I blame the area that I grew up in. Small town where everyone knows everybody. Folk around here don’t embrace change, matter of fact we shy away from it. Not all, but most do. People who grew up around here with myself cannot disapprove of this statement without having their fingers crossed.  It’s semi-annoying, but once again it’s my choice to remain here or move.  Waking up and doing the same thing is comforting to some people and quite frankly that is okay. I for one have been seeking something more and its become an everyday event now.  Hence my crossroads.

We are in constant search of the “BIG BREAK”. Newsflash for you, if you wake up day in and out and do the same things day in and out your going to get the same results.  I understand I am being very hypocritical at this point, but I was hoping by writing a blog post on the matter it’d give me some motivation to make some changes in my life, perhaps even drastic ones. Home will always be home. You can always return and I know people who I have moved and returned. I also know people who have moved and have never looked back.  It really boils down to looking deep inside of you. It’s crazy that the very technology that was created to bring us as Family, Friends and Colleagues closer is keeping us farther apart than we have ever been.  I have been contemplating on creating a pledge page for people to give up their Facebook accounts. If you want to talk to someone give them a call, go grab a coffee or lunch. Society don’t know how to have face-to-face conversations anymore it’s crazy. What are you guys thoughts on this?  Fear can be crushing to our dreams and I need to break away from it.

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Remember these are the words of me, the words of I, and the words of everything I previously have known.

-Mess